I want to hold her and tell her "it's not your fault"

fuckin' a.

jealousy is a petty thing. i think we can all agree. human nature, yeah, so it's hard to avoid being even slightly jealous, but there's no need to let it ruin things.


I'm listening to Streetlight Manifesto right now. It's nice and takes me back to a simpler time. They're playing their back-to-back full album shows tonight and tomorrow in the city. I want to go down and see them but I know there's no way I could afford to do that. Not necessarily money-wise (it'd put a dent into my bank account, but I would be able to cover the costs), but I really don't think I can invest any time into it... I've been getting behind in schoolwork as it is and if I go to these shows I'll risk missing my classes the next day. Since when did I become responsible enough to not miss class? Dammit.

Anywho, Streetlight Manifesto. Yeah. It's been six years since I discovered them thanks to the M:P boards back on GameFAQs. Six years and the lyrics still always get to me. Amazing.

I feel like these lyrics in particular really describe the place I'm at:

so can't stop the car and put her in park
and i step outside (god i hate this part)
when i see what i saw what i thought was a life that was more
than a chore and just doing what i need to get by
i don't care if you leave or stay
but you might as well split
because it's not the same as it was
when we said our last goodbye
and if you want the truth: i was hoping one of us would pass away
because it'd be much easier then
we would all get together and think about when
we were young we were dumb we were numb but in love
and i'm done so i'm sending out this letter today


okay, maybe not *exactly* the situation I feel like I'm in (afterall, I don't drive) but I still feel like it sort of sums up bits and pieces of my life.


There's also an Open Mic on campus this weekend. Despite being an Open Mic, you need to sign up in advance. Luckily, Tara is the person to talk to in order to sign up, so I'll no problems with that. I think I'm gonna play some originals and maybe a cover or two if there's time.